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    Monday, February 18, 2008
    Title : 18/02/2008 morning.
    Time : 11:37 PM

    I woke up in the morning with a series of weird dreams. Nightmare, I called it.
    They are weird, and not making any sense. Right, since I remember the dream, it should not happen in real life, so I should not worry so much. But they are weird.
    Ok.. So, like I've said, a series of nightmare, so this show that I have not been sleeping well these few nights.
    Well..
    First I had a sudden fever after my sore throat, then is my running nose, which is still blocked. Then my sore throat worsened, till I dont even feel like talking much. And now i am coughing real hard, like a.. chicken? (Ok, i dont know how to describe it.. forget it.)
    I hate to be sick, especially when you have to work when you are sick, and nobody cares about you, whether you are live or dead. Its ok, probably when you are lying down in the hospital bed, with a pale looking face, and cracking lips, people will start to worry whether you will die or not.
    Oh well.. thats life and I start to accept it.
    Ok, so far so good for the "oh.. I'm sick" part..
    Then this morning, after the series of nightmare, I woke up with a terrible headache, and went to wash up and prepare for work. Just before I left my house, I had tummyache, so I rushed to the toilet, and I realised I have diarrhea.. After spending so much time in the toilet, I thought i was going to miss my bus and late for work. But.. luckily the bus arrived soon after I reached the bus stop. (Oh I love the 576..)
    In the bus, I did nth but look around. Looking around aimlessly and hoping that I would reach orchard fast enough. Hopeless..
    Yup, like i've said, sick and still working. Thats why I am in a foul mood. (Its just that when you're working, nobody can see that I was unhappy or angry or sad, because if you show some of your emotions, you won't want to know what your colleagues think about you. Hais.. Life....)
    I am angry, but I cant tell anyone, because everyone would think that its Unnecessary to be angry. I am sad, but no one knows because, what is there to be sad about.
    Well.. I am shouting now, to everyone now, I AM ANGRY AND SAD BECAUSE NO ONE CARED!!!

    Ok, I am feeling slightly better now. (Like real.)

    Tomorrow, will be my last day of marathon working. finally.
    How i wish i could say
    that tmr is my last day of working.
    that tmr is my last day of my life.

    I am tired.
    I am tired of having to work like a cow and sick like a stupid dead man. (Right.. I cant describe this either.)
    I am tired of waiting to get into a stupid institute, to get a stupid degree and get a better irritating job.
    I am tired of people asking me when am i going to study AGAIN.
    I am tired.
    I am tired of living, literally.
    I want to end my life, literally.

    I want to be alone, for the first time.