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    Monday, February 18, 2008
    Title : I hate..
    Time : 11:19 PM

    I hate..

    i hate to be alone
    i hate to walk in crowds
    i hate to walk in the dark
    i hate the memories under the moonlight
    i hate the sound of the cars
    i hate to see couples walking around like as if its their road
    i hate to be ignored
    i hate emptiness
    i hate to wake up with nightmare repeating itself
    i hate...
    i hate.

    I am afraid...

    i am afraid of darkness
    i am afraid of loneliness
    i am afraid of being rejected
    i am afraid of being ignored
    i am afraid of getting confused
    i am afraid of losing
    i am afraid of nightmares
    i am afraid...
    i am afraid.


    I hate my life, but afraid of losing my life.
    Sigh..
    Sometimes, I still wonder whats the purpose of living.
    To get hurt? To be loved? Then.. what? Die?
    I really see no purpose in life.
    Someone enlighten me please?

    Whats the use of inventing all sorts of technology that are able to prolong our lives, when we know that one day we will die?
    Why are we enjoying all these expensive facilities, but people in the 3rd world country have to suffer?
    Why are people wasting food, when others dont even get to eat?
    Why?

    Why people would choose to end their life?
    I would say that they are brave.. Brave to give up their live, and go on to the other world that is unknown. Brave to let go of everything without looking back. Brave that they are able to neglect how other people feel about them leaving. Brave...
    But why are there so many people said that they are being selfish? Being silly? No they are not.
    And i know that they are enjoying their time. Because they dont have to worry.

    I know because I hate my life.

    Whats the main point of living?
    Smile to people that I dont know, just to make them happy.
    Then who is gonna make me happy?
    Smile to people that is making your life more difficult.
    then why do they deserve all these politeness?
    Smile to people who scold you. What the hell?
    Smile the people who walked past you, and literally didn't see you and bang into you and expect you to say sorry. Like... Fuck right?

    Then when you are sad,
    people will say that you give them attitude, no manners.
    And when we smile when we are sad, people will say that we're so fake.
    Bloody hell.
    Man has no feelings.
    Or maybe has no brain.
    (Its ok, im scolding myself as well.)

    I am tired of living..
    Of waiting..
    Of hoping..
    Of wishing..

    I just want to give up everything.
    Just dont want to care anymore.
    Why should I care when no one else cares for you?

    Nevermind.